Middle school and high school brought on more teasing, but I also found outlets for my creativity and skills that I enjoyed, I joined many activities and made lots of friends. I play some sports like softball and tennis, I did marching band, which many might not know but is VERY physically challenging. And I also did artsy things like speech, band, choir, and theater. By high school I was very insecure about my weight. I found some online things about pro-ana and losing weight. I unhealthily lost some pounds and got many compliments, I thought it was a good thing. But after 6 months of doing that I started eating normally again and it all came back. College was even harder, cafeterias, drinking, parties, my weight continued to go up and I continued to ignore it.
I was up to 262lbs.
I graduated, got a job and started to just live a normal adult life. I no longer had homework, activities, extreme stress, I had some time for me. I woke up on April 1st, 2008 and decided that I was ready to change. I reached out to a friend and started Weight Watchers, that's it, I did not intend to work out right away. I lost 17lbs in the first month! That was so motivating I felt like I was doing something right and making a healthy change. I kept at it, I joined a gym for the first time in my life I got healthy, over two years I lost 100lbs, I was playing street hockey and volley ball, I was biking and running and lifting weights, I was energetic and happy and I finally felt like myself.
BEFORE 262lbs AFTER 165lbs
Fast forward to 2013. I have gained nearly 60lbs back, I went back to grad school and gave up a lot of my free time I had been using for exercise, I had a lot more stress working full time, going to school full time, then being laid off, I ate more unhealthy and wasn't measuring anything. I stopped being aware. After going back up 3 pants sizes I am just so disappointed in myself and frustrated that I have to do much of this work all over again. I turned back to Weight Watchers because it worked before. The system is different now though so I'm not sure how this program will work for me. I am trying, I am committed, and I am going to use this blog as a personal motivator to stay honest about what I'm doing, why, and hopefully to track my progress and seek support to get back to where I want to be. Then spend the rest of my life staying there.
I live with my bf of three years, he is my best friend, my #1 supporter and as cliche as it is, he is my better half. We have two chocolate labs Bella and Mason, they are brother and sister just 4 litters apart :) we call them the "brown dogs".
I am a nerd and love all things nerd.
I also love baseball! Go Twins!!